Monday, October 20, 2014


I recently had a conversation with my daughter about fitness, and she used an expression that I have never heard of before: skinnyfat. She explained that someone can be slender, but not be fit or have muscle.

I used to be skinnyfat. I was rail thin and enormously self-conscious about my weight. Despite being slender, I wasn't fit at all. You know how people talk about having a fast metabolism and can eat anything they want? Well, that was me into my late twenties. That's hardly the case anymore; I am fairly certain I am starting menopause, but that's a sad post all it's own for another day.

Right now, I'm the heaviest that I have ever weighed. While I'm certainly not happy about it, I know what I need to do to lose weight. I'm embarrassed to admit that I haven't been willing to make those changes, until I stepped on the scale this morning. 

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I feel like my life revolves around the fridge anymore.

I broke down and sent a text to the trainer I hired, who helped me lose over 20lbs a year and a half ago, and she and I will begin working together to help get my eating back on track.

The point I want to make is that when I was skinny, it didn't make me any happier or make life my any easier. What I really want is to feel healthy and have more energy. What I also know is that this is an inside job; I'm the one who is in charge of what goes in my mouth.  


  1. Boy-howdy, do I ever hear you on this!! I've always been skinnyfit until recently. After a LOT of hard work I'm still not skinny, but I'm strong and fit. I'm fatskinny instead of skinnyfat. LOL.

    It sucks coming to the realization that you have to do *something* with yourself. Sucks hard. You'll do it. I have complete confidence in you.

  2. Thanks Cristy! I think part of the struggle with a slower metabolism is that before I could make small changes in my diet or exercise and reap quick results. It does no good to lament about the past, though. I'm going to roll with the changes and stay positive!